terrified

I'm terrified now, the owner of my house keep adding a china girl to stay in the house. when i first come in it is only 2 girls staying, yesterday it become 3 and now he add 1 more girl to come so tomorrow it will become 4 girls. i started to feel this house become more n more scary i want to go now but got no where to go. now i know what is the feeling of being terrified. you cant sleep you cant eat well. luckily my ex girlfriend still willing to help me with my important letter and few of my stuff and my temple member help me on booking a hospital for me to check my skin problem. i don't know whether my boss will allow me to work from indonesia or not that's is still a big question for me. my life suddenly change from a peaceful life to a terrifying life. i guess this is because of i'm still lacking of patience and faith in Buddhism. this can be say is the worst experience after i'm being blinded. i hope a solution will arise soon i can't stay longer that's for sure but i also can't run away now because of the situation. the only thing that can save me is Gohonzon and no one else.