Is this the blinded patient

my trip back to malay was better, i could see bit of things here and there not like the second time i went there. at this stage i still couldn't watch TV yet though it's on but i can't see the picture on the tv there's only sound. when we go for my eye checkup the doctor felt strange that i could read the test board and asked my mother "this is the kids that is blinded last time right ?" than my mother nod her head while confirming the doctor when being asked by the doctor whether i consumed other medicine my mother just lie and said no because she don't want the doctor to stopping me from consuming Mr Chen medicine. the doctor directly called the neural specialist doctor that treat me last time and write a letter to him that my eye recovery is because of vitamin B+. the Eye doctor told my Mother that i need to do checkup one more time 2 months from that time.

my mother looks happy because of the doctor reaction and at that evening we ate a great food it's a manggo fried fish and it's the best dish that i taste since the first time i went there. in malay we keep on finding good place to eat one of them is a laksa that being served inside a coconut it's really nice until the shop will close at 12 am though they open at 9 because all of the laksa is sold out.

every morning since the first time i went to malay we always eat breakfast on one coffee shop and this time the aunt that sold the coffee said to my mother "this time your son look more handsome and can see as well" that aunt always say the same thing when we drink to the store lucky that my mother only smile and don't talk much >.<

after we went back the next day i went to temple with my mother. Mr Yudo come and asked my mother whether i already started to do Gongyo or not, my mother answered that i still can't read letter yet so i haven't learn to do gongyo and Mr Yudo said it's just a reason not to learn. there is an old lady in temple that can't read but she learn from listening and insist my mother to teach me.

i felt i let my mother down than the next day at home while i chant in front of Gohonzon I pray and said " If it's really important to read and produce sound when i'm doing Gongyo please teach me, i admit i'm a shy person and i afraid of being wrong. how if somebody laugh at me when i wrongly spell the word and some more i can't read now though i really want to read the sutra" while i pray without noticing tears start to drop from my eyes. that same day when i'm a sleep i dream of one person wearing a white robe and holding the joju beads ( a beads that being hold in both of our hand when we chant) he said to me " come and learn you could follow me to chant. the whole dream he keep asking me to repeat reading Gongyo book until i don't know how many times i recite Gongyo on my dream. the next day ( at Sunday ) when i'm in temple i suddenly memorized the whole Gongyo wording and my mouth can automatically follow others to do Gongyo.

when i told this to my mother she said its maybe the deceased leader because he is a wise leader and like to teach believer. but for me no matter who is the one in my dream i believe that Gongyo is really important in Nichiren Shoshu Buddhism