things went bad

at first my left eye started to pickup some light and since all my family member is busy ( even my mother need to go to work) so my friend is only TV so i keep watching TV channel everyday. i also need to do therapy at home which force my eye to be closed and when i close my eye i could see people and there is a lot of people there walking around here and there.

I asked my self am I crazy now? who are they soon after i finished asking one of them said to me no you are not crazy, we are here to accompanied you so you are not bored than a lot of small human marching and walk from left to right then right to left some of them will jump some will roll over and try to make me laugh. after i finished my therapy which take me 20 minute i call my maid and tell her that i got hallucination than she said maybe because u don't have some one to talk to than you feel lonely.

my thought at that time was it confirmed I'm crazy now what should i do blind and crazy? and the worst thing is, it happening day by day. the feeling worsen when i need to go to malaysia hospital and before i go there i need to go to my parent's home town which is kalimantan. i said to my mother no matter what i didn't want to go to kalimantan first i want to fly directly to malaysia but she reject on budget issue and at night i feel weird and i feel afraid at that night

something that i can't forget until today happen when i closed my eyes to go to sleep at that time i saw earth became strange the sky is red and the ground all red because of being covered by blood at that time i got shocked and open my eye every time i close my eyes again the same scene happened and like it or not i need to close my eyes to go to sleep after that i saw there is a lot of people that use metal spikes as their accessorizes they tortured other human by cutting their hand leg and in the end beheaded them woman being raped first before being tortured and killed. few people walk around with a big plate and human head are on the plate. the next day i when to kalimantan using plane and stay in my grandfather's house

additional story:
the reason that i need to go to hospital though Mr Chen is confident that he could cured me was because majority of my family ( uncle and aunt) believe more to doctor rather than Chinese Doctor moreover mr Chen cured people using Qi. So we in the end go to Eye Specialist Hospital to check my eye in one morning it turn out that the Doctor is very rude after he examined my eye he write some letter to my to do MRI scan to some hospital than my mother ask him about my eye condition by asking "Doc whats is wrong with my son eye? can it be cured? " the doctor rudely reply " mam, do you know I'm writing ?" My mother angry and said" Doc do you have kid ? if you kid was sick won't you be curious and want to know what happen? i'm a mother and my son is blind now and you only answer me that you are writing now". the doctor keep on writing something and after he finished he said " your son's eye is ok we need to know what is wrong with his brain by doing scanning this is the letter that you need to bring." in the car i ask my mother for the letter since i want to see what is inside after i check i ask my mother there is 2 million rupiah injection being mention here than spontaneously asked my mother "there is injection that cost 2 million here what kind of injection is that? just to see whether my brain got problem or not ? won't it make my brain even worst if really got problem on my brain?" my mother react calmly and call Mr Chen. i'm glad that mr Chen told my mother not to do it in indonesia and told my mother to send me to better hospital like singapore or malay which end up I'm being send to malay. i can't imagine how if my blood stream being inject by that 2million liquid which turn out in malaysia hospital that kind of injection is not needed at all. i really concerned about indonesia hospital and promise my self to find more money so that if my parents or brother got sick i won't let indonesia hospital do something on them.