after going back from hospital to the house where we rent the room i feel so helpless at that night instead of my eye sight getting better it getting worst instead for my both eyes. since its still 11 am so all of us go for a lunch. aunt a keep sitting beside me and at that time aunt c sit on my other side. since i can't see properly so they are the one that take the food for me at that time i really know who is the one that really care about me. aunt c always stuff me with vegi that really taste bad until aunt a said "why you always gave that vegi for him? you don't see that he don't even eat the vegi he just put it aside" than aunt c said "than told him to take him self i just trying to help" aunt a just keep quite than help me to take bit of meat and nicer vegi. that kind of scene happened again at night when we have a dinner but now aunt a didn't talk much just help me to take few food for me. and the next day we went back to kalimantan ( to my grandfather's house) . than i realized my uncle that called me before i go to malay came with my aunt for the second time. my aunt ask me how do you feel than i said not that good it bit getting worst.
she asked me can u see my face? i answered no i cannot i know it's you because of your voice ( i said it with a small smile) she seems to be very2 sad listening to my answered and touch my face i could felt that she really am sad for me. i can't cried at that time because i don't want to make her felt worst i just said to my mind though I'm really sad now i wont show it now. my vision for both eyes are now in the worst state i just can feel and imagining how my grandfather's house feel like. as my vision worsen my hearing become more sensitive and sharper i noticed this thing hapened because my vitamin drop to the floor but my hand suddenly reached the vitamin when i touch the ground and bounce without even looking. i could hear foot step clearly and define who's foot step was it and i feel what hapened with the blind they got more capability in hearing. the other things that i got at that time is to sense what the person really feel which make me scared as well i sometimes being able to predicted what will the person said or do i know this because when i wake up and before i go down i know that my aunt that came from jakarta will said "ferdy there is a cake on the table and there is some rice cake there too just eat it " than i directly know that my causin ( the one that talk bad things infront of me ) will come and ask what is that than he take 2 of the cake. after getting that vision i just don't think it seriously and just went down but strangely that all my prediction comming true in order. i felt that is there something wrong in my brain ? i lost physical vision eyes but i got other vision of eyes?
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16 years ago


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